I still think about Melissa a lot. But I also think very highly and adore Serena too. I'm torn. I keep wondering what could have been... I don't want this feeling to destroy what I could have with Serena, but I don't know what to do. Serena doesn't know. I'm too chicken to let her know, but like Melissa said, I shouldn't do this to Serena. She's far to special for me to betray her like this... I'm being so selfish.